Unique Simplicity.

Dwelling

2011-04-26T03:35:00.002+10:00

Everyone has their peek in life, a point where they experience their most critical time in life.

Have i reached mine? Or have i passed it?

Today's society is filled with people who consider themselves not good enough.

Im one of them.

When will my life take me somewhere different?

Everyday i wake up wishing for something different, yet things are the same.

Nothings changed, nothings improved. Same me, yet people are changing rapid to adapt.

When will i be able to look back and tell myself, i achieved that and be pleased?

I've been dwelling on my past recently, reminiscing the past, all the achievements and all the failures, i guess, i regret too much to even come to this point.

Spare me, and give me a shot at life will you God?.

2010-01-23T17:42:00.002+11:00

Life is an interesting journey, you'll never know where it'll take ya.
Peaks and valleys, twist and turns.
You can get the surprise of your life.
Sometimes on the way to where your going you might think,
this is the worst time of my life.
But you know what, at the end of the road,
through all the adversity,
if you can get where you wanted to be,
you'll remember whatever don't kill you make you stronger.
And all the adversity was worth it.
On your way to the top, you'll do anything,
but how do you get your life back when you get there?
Yea, that's my dilemma

- T.I

Yes FINISH

2009-11-09T02:01:00.000+11:00

Finally finished the HSC :D
Although , im not completely satisfied , it was quite hard overall esp maths = /
At least its done yea?
Hopefully ill get the UAI i want =]

2009-09-23T01:07:00.001+10:00

Shoot me.
kick, punch, spit, stab.
whatever.
just don't ignore me.

=[

2009-09-23T00:59:00.003+10:00

Seems like i always come back here whenever im unhappy. Funny ay? lol.
Shows how lonely i am.

You left me when i needed you the most in this time of my life.

You threw me away as if i meant nothing to you anymore.

You made me hate myself.

''I don't wanna waste another day stuck in the shadow of my mistakes.''

Sorry for all those hard times i put you through.

Lifes a bitch.

2009-06-03T18:58:00.003+10:00

I hate life.
I hate stuff
I hate everything.

The moment you put effort into it, is the moment it turns you down.

love

2009-05-08T01:33:00.000+10:00

The things we truly love stay with us always, locked in our hearts as long as life remains.
– Josephine Baker

2009-05-07T22:15:00.002+10:00

"When I'm feeling like there's no love coming to me, and I have no love to give, When I'm feeling separated from the world, and cut off from myself, and annoyed by every little thing, because I'm not getting what I want, I'll remember that there's an infinite amount of love available to me. And I'll see it in you. And I'll remember that I'm complete within myself, and most of all, I'll remember that everything I really need I already have. And whatever I don't have will come to me when I'm ready to receive it." - Will and Grace

Music: Akon- Come back to me , Westlife - Hard to say i'm sorry

Im Sorry.
Sorry for everything.

Although a sorry is not enough , as you've probably heard it so many times, that its become a useless word with no meaning.

I know i should of waited for you patiently,
I know i should of trusted you.
and i know i was overprotective, i mean i had no rights to be.
But its hard.
I lost you once, and i swore its not going to happen again.
Once i heard those 6 words you told me , it was just so sudden.
What i did was from an act of impulse.
I hope you understand, i know you didnt mean it
But i felt like you did
Felt like whatever ive been trying to do/achieve this past year , just seems unnoticed and meaningless.
I've never liked anyone before you , so i hope you understand all this.
I dont know when to be there for you
I didnt know that when your knees are cold,you'd need a jacket.

I just wished i was there for you all the time when you needed me
I told you i was, and i know i wasnt.
But i wasnt lying

I just needed to say it to you, so i would be able to remind myself.

I wish i could tell you everything even though i couldnt.

Just sometimes, i think im not good enough for anyone.
or you & that you deserve someone better.
When you found that someone better last year, i was a bit happy
Happy that you found someone better then me. (even he turned out to be a dickhead)
But yeah.

See, i need you,
You may not be perfect.
But thats just what so good about you. i dont need to marry a fkn model.
someone tall?
someone hot?
someone rich?
No, i dont need all that.

You asked me today, '' Why cant every girl just look the same? if thats so then guys will never cheat''.

If that happened then i would of never met you.
Never been able to find out why i like you so much.
Everyone will be so same, itll be so boring.
We wouldnt find out what love is by ourselves and how much one person can mean/change another person in life.

It wasnt a mistake and i dont regret any of it.

I will be there, and wait.
for when the time comes.

Forgive me?
x

HSC.Fcuk.

2009-05-06T00:47:00.000+10:00

Fkn HSC.
Yes fk HSC.
Just fk it.
The worse climax for your last year of high school.
Is it worth all that trouble?
Is it worth all that time studying your ass off ,
while everyone gets to appreciate life to its full.
Will we ever succeed in our life without a UAI? Is it that important, that some could even take it to extreme and suicide?
Will we lead a happy life , just knowing we failed our hsc?
Wtf does UAI even stand for? Unprotected Anal intercourse???

All these questions keep popping up in my mind and they wont stop coming. Its the only thing i worry about and will be for the next fucking 6months.Its what keeps me awake at 3am morning (and other stuff....but mainly this.)

People say that by thinking too much you become a coward.
Your scared to face your fears & your failures
But i believe in myself.(or well try to :S) I believe that i could be the best of me.
I would not let anybody stop me.
I would become the best by trying the best.
And working hard towards my UAI goal.

Yet I cant help but think about it every minute and procrastinate.
Its like a plague with no cure. Its like no matter how hard you try, you gotta accept the fact that you cant run away from it.
Im Not running away from it. The only thing that annoys me is that it is finally coming.
After so many years of hardwork, it finally comes to an end - Our School years. Although there were some rough & dodgy times, you cant say it wasn't memorable , waking up everyday early for school , meeting new friends and even making fun of fked up people.x]
Although friends might be lost and things may change, Its gonna be exciting to get it over and done with.

Just out of your mind & head forever.

You'd think 12 years of education were a sufficient amount of time to be ready/prepared for what lays ahead.
But your wrong. Everything changes just in a blink of an eye.
At first you'd use to look up to the seniors and ask yourselves when will you ever get there?
When will it be your turn to plunge yourself into this ''Hsc'' world and endure the pain.
Next thing you know, *blinks eye* its YOUR turn to change.

Change is like a transition or alteration that may affects all aspects of a person's life. It can be positive or negative consequences.It can be physical,emotional,intellectual,geographical or spiritual. It can have positive or negative consequences. Change is inevitable.We have to learn to accept who we are and just get along with it.
While some people deny or avoid change, others embrace it. But the change is important in understanding ourselves - Our identity. It brings us one step closer into knowing who we are and what our purposes are in life.

This moment in which that all Ive gone through to achieve my hopes and dreams for the future.
This period of time has become an irreplaceable part of my experience.
The yesterday that had passed, and today will be gone soon,
and for the sake of the approaching tomorrow be different from yesterday.
If every single day compared to anyone else, i can sweat more and to not have any reason for regret in the future, i am willing to go through anything.

I just hope we all do our best, and not let the HSC take over us.
and whatever the mark it turns out to be. i hope everyone will be satisfied with it , and that its not the end of the fucking world if you get shit. '' You know that an end signals a new beginning'' , just means that you gotta put more effort and try harder for whats ahead of you , instead of mourn over your shit mark.

Ps. UAI Aim: 85uai + , Macquarie Uni , Business degree.

First blog =]

2009-05-04T00:11:00.000+10:00

Finally made this even though i dont know why ;S
Must be because im bored and have nothing else better to do ><
Oh well , lets just see how far this goes =]